Vincent The Dragon

ok. so like with Scott's help i am going to make the transition from a windows 2000 advanced Server to a Linux based server...
...big job O-o;;

I was just goung to take the HTPC that is out of date and use it - I just spent better part of several hours modding a case and installing the Mobo and a bunch of fans...well..i look at it and think this:

The Mobo to the windows box has 4 IDE chains for a total of 8 drives - the one for the HTPC will take 4 IDE drive and 2 Sata - I know better...the Sata is a raid array and will be problematic with Linux...Sooooo...I will take the 3200+ CPU, its 1gig Dual Channel ram and put them in the windows server ten use that mobo to make the Linux server..makes for a lot more work but i"ll have better airflow in the server case and better upgrade/drive space...

Also started helping Joe pull the transmision out of his truck..owowow..i cut the crap out of my thumb..at least its on the other hand from the nice cut i got from replacing the clutch in my truck...Sighs...

To say I'm overworked at work is a bit of an understatement.
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I'm running the service calls of 2 areas and i do 2 jobs normally anyway.
Quite honestly, my manager is not helping much and is quickly loosing any confidence we technitions had in his ability to be a manager..and it's stressful and pissing me off.

Its a situation that not going away anytime soon, the tech they hired to replace the one they fired has no experience so it will be a year or more before he starts to be proficient.

I've been a copier technition for 15 years and I'm getting burned out; there is no foreseeable way to move up at the moment. This branch is Not growing and the job i was hired to grow into five years ago has not solidified and will not, in my opinion.
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ok, replaced the clutch in the truck; with Joes help.
um..i hurt..
its a bitch of a job when you really don't have the tools you should for such a job.
Clutch like new ^_^ now

Also

I still kinda suck at StarCraft; but i'm getting better. The main thing is that i love to play the game so getting stomped by Scott is still fun, besides, i love him and it's a way to spend time together
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Dads home and doing well.
Not Cancer.

Dad goes in for surgery today.
Removing nodules from his lungs, very well could be cancer.

It's been caught early, so he was a good chance if it is.
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Truck held up on the way home..drove 11 hours straight.

I feel great.
Snuggling the puppy dog is not the same as snuggling you Scott, but it will have to do until i can hold you once more ^_^
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I'm idly working on some computer things (got remote desktop and NTFS writing working on the Ubuntu's ) and cleaning/re-arranging my lair so that i uncover the drafting table i used to use for crafting. I want to really get back into the model making i used to do, i have ideas for my Warhammer army's painting schemes and i have a few models laying around that i now want to finish.
I feel more even keel that i did in times past - this time it's different, comfortable, like i know it's going to work out no mater what.
(^_^)

I felt so at ease next to you Scott.

...I got my wish...the first part anyway...
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Tonight...by the powers that be Scott, i don't have words...They fail me in ways they never have before...
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Tonight I got my wish...

So, I am setting here in Mel Lastman square, just outside the hotel. It’s a nice, quite place – I’ll snap a few photos in a moment. I’m collecting thoughts and such. Thinking about things; things likely not the best stuff to think about this early in a relationship. Truly this is our first real time together. Even though we try to bring as much real world into our online chats and such, it’s hard to truly be oneself until you meet face to face. Thus far I am Not disappointed in the least. Scott you are nearly everything I had hoped you to be. I like this place, this town. I’m sorry Michael but I can very much see myself living here. Whether it’s a fallacy or not or just part of my personality I do project my thoughts into the future, I stand away and analyze the data I see, think about what’s best for all. I know my ‘career’ is not going anywhere soon, yes I make a good amount of money, yes I can afford a house..but…no, I’m not happy. This place is not perfect – I’d rather it is a bit more open, you don’t see 2 men walking the street hand in hand and yet this is a country where same sex marriage is recognized. It’s expensive here, like all large cities. Certainly there are things I would have to give up. Money is money, it’s not happiness. I’d rather be poor and happy.
I felt the wish to kiss you Scott, more than once; but I’m also afraid. I’ve never felt this way before, not like this anyway. You have me, I’m yours and I’d likely do just about anything you asked of me; but I’m also an equal. I want to share life with you, not follow you around in yours. Due to the nature of our meeting and so forth, certainly that’s what happened to a degree. That will change as time goes by, were you visiting me, I’d be running the tour, heh. We have a long way yet to go. I’ve always felt that I’d fall in love with my true Mate someday, and I never saw or seeked out any other than that Mate; Likely not the best way to go through life. And I’ve been too afraid to truly seek for a long time. You, Michael, changed that in me. I may not be seeking the way or as strongly as some think I should. I can’t say what you are seeking Scott that would be for you to decide. I only know this; I feel comfortable by your side, happy and warn inside when you hold my hand. I want to snuggle you, touch you, play games together, grow together, fold the laundry as we talk about our days, go shopping, I want to make Love to you. For the life of me I don’t know how to start, to begin. I fear going to fast or not fast enough. I don’t know what the future holds for us and I don’t know what I’d do without you; or how long I can go without seeing you again. Truly I’d hope that next time we meet RL, you can come to me for a while, see what’s here if only to see it; I really don’t see us living there. Michael, you know I Love you but for a good while now those dreams of the days to come don’t have you in them with us all under the same roof. You will always be there, always have a special place in my heart and I’ll always feel love for you. It’s possible, I’ve researched it a bit, and you can still be with me and Scott if the future holds for us living in Canada. I do realize that it is very much a silly thing to think about such things. Lots of time is yet to be passed before such a thing is ever to come to reality.
By the same token Scott, My dearest one, I can see you in Kentucky. I see you making great things happen in some company there; either in some type of programming/database thing or if only to be a great IT specialist. There is a not so much open source thing here, but I’m sure Berry Plastic’s world wide operations headquarters (now based in Evansville) could benefit from the enormous cost savings and logistics of a cheaper intranet infrastructure.

I have hopes, dreams, wishes and wants – I know better than to expect them all to come true – but save for one – I don’t want to be alone anymore – I just don’t feel at home or at ease where I am now – I need to move, start over, be me…learn more about what is it to be me. I’m not perfect, far far from it, but I do have a lot to give. Giving is what I’m good at, getting; that I’m not used to.
I find myself asking myself “What is Love?” – I have no idea, not really, but I feel drawn to you Scott and I find no other reason that fits, than Love.

The coffee is empty, my fingers chill, a quarter I gave to the fountain, I wished on it…

It just gets better and better. This town is..re-freshing in that the large towns i have been in seemed cramped, dirty, and the people are not nice. Here its different, i see trees and grass and the sky, friendly people, all awash in a field of gigantic buildings. I see recycling where its difficult to do, like in a mall food court. We walked around and did some local area sight seeing, played a quick truncated rules demo of Warhammer, went shopping ^_^, lunch with Scott's mom, oh, the commic book store was great so was the fleamarket/misc stuff store (lots of neat stuff, i could spend days in there coming up with ideas for projects). The CN tower is..OMG! Huge. i did ok with the heights..even sort of walked on the glass floor there..and i kinda looked down.. *^^*. The movie was great, the company was great. Scott, I feel so much at ease by your side...like i belong there..right now your kinda running the shots, so to speak, a bit one sided because i don't know what to do; but i loved today.

I am Happy.

My evening with Scott contained 3 wonderful things...
it contained WIN, Awesomeness and Scott ^_^

it's nice up here, most of the countryside looks Just like southern Indiana - smelled like it too ^^ (cattle farms) - Clutch on the truck is dying fast...last 250 miles or so it refused to dis-engage all the way and i had to powershift...customs was fun...not too bad really..just questions and such and they called and made sure i was allowed to see Scott. I am thankful someone was there to answer the phone..and they came back 3 times and asked how to log into my laptop (switch the os to Ubuntu). Scott's family that i have seen thus is nice, understanding and..well..i like them.

Hugs and Loves to Scott - our date was great ^_^ Sleep well my Love

Today is the day, I'm off to see Scott (^_^)
Love you so much, i can't wait to hug you.

I'm driving to Detroit, staying the night then hopping the border in the morning.

I'm not as nervous as i was the first time i did something like this, this time it feels different..more..dare i say more like it fits, like its truer to myself.

fairy tails do happen, there are stories online about meetings and such of ones soul mate, it can happen - it may happen - i hope this is the one.

Scott you have been with me through a lot of stuff, you were there the morning i left for Washington, there the day, there when i got off the plane, and there when i got back. you've been there during my emotional silliness. you've been there to share good times, music, games, general day to day chats. I've been there a few times for you as well. i feel we've grown up a great deal, together. We still have more to go, I hope we can continue that life's journey together as lovers an more than just friends.
The world is an odd place, thats for sure. In the eyes of society we may not be normal as a couple...you know what..Screw normal. ^_^
"normalcy is boring" that was my quote in my high school yearbook

so like...sometimes i get Really into a game. I'll buy it, play it a few times, put it on the shelf then get it out one weekend and play..and play all weekend... ^_^. Yeah, so i played Starcraft for 12 hours straight..you know you've played and emersed yourself in a game too much when you dream 'In Game'

Next Weekend ! I see Scott Next Weeek End !!
(_( I really need to pack and get the roadmaps and stuff...

Lets hope i finish this one....
Yup..Gonna case mod this sucker!
slot fed DVDs will fit perfectly behind the opening for the 5.25's i can hide all the external connectios i need...video, usb, 1394, ether..the hard part is that i was to keep the keyboard..and make it usable...i may have to custom wire it..time will tell. also i will pull off the green screen and mod the monitor bezel so a touch-screen will fit there ^_^

From this nice Cougar I know
http://55seddel.livejournal.com/

"Answer these questions three..."

Reply to this post, and I will list three things I like about you.
Then repost to your own journal and spread the love

The Dragon Repies:
Do i havta put it in my Livejournal journal..cause i dont use it...
i prefur my blog (^_^)

55seddel
its cool

1 You are a Ford guy
2 You listen
3 You got me into cast iron cooking!

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