Vincent The Dragon

You would not know it from looking here but quite a lot has happened recently actually. Lets start with the teeth...Well..The root canal went fine ($700) and the crown is on its way after the dentist put a re-enforcing pin in the tooth and took castings for the crown ($1200). The lower molar seems to be ok-ish but i can tell by the way it feels that it will have to be root canaled some time as well – Lets hope they can save the crown thats on it, chances are good since it is a steel crown and not porcelain.

Lets see, plans for going to my Love is well in hand ^__^

Fancy has a nasty urinary tract infection that i had to take a day out of work to bring her to the vet, she got anti-biotic and is doing much better

And I had a friend and his Mate over for the weekend for some movies, nice meals I cooked, enjoying me prance around the lair necked, borrowing my bandwidth, mutual pawing and stuffing the dragons muzzle *^_^*

the rain comes and as the temperature waxes and wanes it turns to ice, then snow, than back to ice as Mother Nature rants undecided. The trappings of mankind interrupted as the world bends to her power. The trees naked in the storm awake to find themselves in a sheen of glass. Beautiful but heavy, sullen and like delicate crystal works some break and shatter and splinter themselves upon the land, draping and pulling against the wires of humanity. So then dose humanity hovel itself inside, disconnected from the warmth they have so been accustomed to. Like all thing the glass passes, the warmth of the sun breaches the world of crystal and ice. The delicate still covered structures become wet and bright like sugar candy sucked wet by the sun. Slowly the wires of humanity are strung anew and they get back to the lives they knew. Some perhaps more worse the wear, some angry about things they can not move, and the rest reflective in the face of Natures eternal grip on the world. We are but just one of the creatures that walk upon her, and although we alone of them all have the power to both destroy and save Her, we should not forget that she has the same power over us.

Yup..big ass ice storm, been without power since Sunday night and yet still...I find it disconcerting however that in the community that i live in..not a single person has managed to get out of their homes and check on their neighbors, Make sure everyone is dry and warm for the night, clothed or hungry..No, they rely on those they put in power to save them, hold their hands and tell them what to do...what to consume; for it's all they know how to do..Take, consume...It's no wonder the USA is where its at..all the power of the Sates has been chiseled away, as the constitution is re-written to put the power of the people on the hands of the Federal government...it's easier that way..you don't have to take responsibly or be expected to produce anything.

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Sooo..i had this laptop, its old. At some point a few years ago i took it all apart to see if i would be useful as an Mp3 player for the truck. It was not going to work for that so i went in a box. I dug it out...eep..it's back together and working again ^_^ not totally sure what I'm going to end up using it for but it will be fun to play with.
Thanks Scott for inspiring me to get it out and toy with it.

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Well...I'm in the chair again...
Trying to concentrate and come up with stuff to say and i am coming up mostly blank.
Iv'e been a bit lazy lately, just hanging out in SL or watchen Babylon 5.
My love for Scott keeps going ^_^ I long for the time when we can progress the relationship but it will be slow due to distance and stuff (pout).

Wow...the nurse just noted that my chart needs 'thinned out' removing and archiving the stuff in the back of the file so it's not so thick...I've had Crohn's for 21 years...For a long time it ruled my existence...I've come a long way.
(^_^)
I think i'mma be lazy and watch tv..

Review was today..on a scale of 0-9 i got a 5.12.
No..I said NO..I rate better than a just slightly marginal amount above 'meets expectations'
After much talk, bossman asks what he thinks i should be so I say "7"
...
He says he will see what he can do, during our conversation about various points on my review worksheet he did admit and say i had some good ideas and whatnots...we will see...

ok..so. Dental appointment...cleaned teeth, flied the cavity that was noticed last visit..oops i have 2 more. Where do they come from..i do everything i am supposed to, cut out nearly all sodas, even stopped drinking as much coffee as i used to...Well..it come from Crohn's disease..yup..we have higher acid in our saliva and it causes the issue when we sleep...so I guess i must stop sleeping now as well..oh! yeas and that one tooth ths bee odd - its dead - no reason, just died, that means root canal...todays visit $800, root canal will cost $500 and the crown for it will be another $700...

-_-
Dragon NOT happy

A thing happens to me when i become taken by a good story; I amerce my self in it, I obsess over it. The good stories do this, they draw you in; make you reflect upon many things. The books in my bio, many of those are in that category. PERN, Dune, The Once and Future King, Michaels book, Born on a Blue Day, many others. I add now a new one to the list. At the poking of my boy friend I acquired the Babylon 5 series. I have immersed myself within it, having pretty much watched an entire season this day. One thing is different; for the first time i truly feel the wish to have another next to me while entranced with this story. Whatever happens Scott, that feeling tells me much about myself; for i have had dreams, wants, fantasy about such things. This time its different, for the dream has more than a feeling; it has a face and a name...Yours...and this time the fantasy is more than mere companionship; more than the closeness of another, more than a kiss or a caress..no, its much much deeper.

Damn it's cold outside.

um...nothing much else going on, still waiting for my review - I'm done being silent, if i get the micro-manage crap and/or barely above average marks - I'm lighten him up - My numbers are green accost the board and those numbers don't take into consideration all the other things i do that are outside my classification - There is a reason i have 4 outstanding achievement shirts and the support and admiration of ALL of my service technition peers and the entire sales staff.

I never go the email saying we were going out Saturday...poo, i was hoping to get out of the house. So, yeah, i spent it mostly lounging and cleaning the house, watching about half a seasons worth of Babylon 5's - Sunday was better ^_^ Chatting with Scott and building that CentOS computer - it is going to take over as the web server, while i get used to the OS i will be building another server to replace the windows domain controller/file server - I want a client/server system like the windows2000 server but done so with Linux.

i need more sleep -_-
and
also i'm starting to have an issue with my teeth .. again!
have appointment but 2 teeth are having a problem, possibly the root is infected.
One im not so worried about as a root canal will work - the other..is a crown...that means the tooth will have to be replaced with an implant - its the anchor tooth for my lower partial

So any way; spent the weekend doing 2 things.
1) Bill came over and i helped him finish off putting together his new computer. We spent most the afternoon working out a nice custom wiring job ^_^ it looks all pretty in the case now...I should have taken pics.

2) I dug real deep into this CSS thing for the web site i am hosting for Qat. I learned a lot and did more than i though i was going to be able to figure out. I still need Scott to clean up the code and massage a few places here and there - but it reminded me of how i like to do web code; even though i am grossly out of date with the modern web codes.

I am beginning to dislike where i work.
I like what I do, I am good at it; but i want to progress up the ladder so to speak.

5 years ago i was hired to grow into a position where i would be more of a Systems Engineer; the person who gathers information, assists the sales staff and installs the copier all in dealing with the network integration of the machine.

Most of these things i am doing now, although its not my job description to do so, they have added ACCT (advanced certified connectivity technician) which means i get the job of actualy connecting the equipment. However all the information gathering, technical and instructing the customer in what the machines capabilities are and what is needed as far as getting with IT of the customer and getting all information needed and working with the IT to get the machine installed is under the SE's job description...But..i have to do all this because its not getting done and I'm left out of the loop, i don't know about installs for sold equipment until only a day or two ahead and since i am still just a copier technician, I can't delegate the time necessary to get both jobs done...It's very frustrating, my team lead is not wanting to stand up and I'm going to have to go over his head...it's been 5 years, i see no growth, no upward mobility, and the management style here is not helpful in making our branch grow...and that spells dead end to me.

WTF !
now its 70 degrees outside
...

Dragon cold !
The new year has started with temperatures that match the number of days passed thus far.

Eeep

Thus ends the year.
Lots has happened, been a busy year; I have found so much.
Found myself, lost myself, then found again.
Found friends, loved ones, and Love
Expanded who I am; not so much what I am.

A lot of my world still is in the ideal world of digital interaction; thus I lack the closeness of physical contact which I still desperately want; but I am loved and I love in return.
In that sense this has been a fulfilling year.

I’m not sure which direction to take this coming year and that in-of-itself I find a bit daunting.

It’s been a good year though
(^_^)