A thing happens to me when i become taken by a good story; I amerce my self in it, I obsess over it. The good stories do this, they draw you in; make you reflect upon many things. The books in my bio, many of those are in that category. PERN, Dune, The Once and Future King, Michaels book, Born on a Blue Day, many others. I add now a new one to the list. At the poking of my boy friend I acquired the Babylon 5 series. I have immersed myself within it, having pretty much watched an entire season this day. One thing is different; for the first time i truly feel the wish to have another next to me while entranced with this story. Whatever happens Scott, that feeling tells me much about myself; for i have had dreams, wants, fantasy about such things. This time its different, for the dream has more than a feeling; it has a face and a name...Yours...and this time the fantasy is more than mere companionship; more than the closeness of another, more than a kiss or a caress..no, its much much deeper.
Damn it's cold outside.
um...nothing much else going on, still waiting for my review - I'm done being silent, if i get the micro-manage crap and/or barely above average marks - I'm lighten him up - My numbers are green accost the board and those numbers don't take into consideration all the other things i do that are outside my classification - There is a reason i have 4 outstanding achievement shirts and the support and admiration of ALL of my service technition peers and the entire sales staff.
I never go the email saying we were going out Saturday...poo, i was hoping to get out of the house. So, yeah, i spent it mostly lounging and cleaning the house, watching about half a seasons worth of Babylon 5's - Sunday was better ^_^ Chatting with Scott and building that CentOS computer - it is going to take over as the web server, while i get used to the OS i will be building another server to replace the windows domain controller/file server - I want a client/server system like the windows2000 server but done so with Linux.
i need more sleep -_-
and
also i'm starting to have an issue with my teeth .. again!
have appointment but 2 teeth are having a problem, possibly the root is infected.
One im not so worried about as a root canal will work - the other..is a crown...that means the tooth will have to be replaced with an implant - its the anchor tooth for my lower partial
So any way; spent the weekend doing 2 things.
1) Bill came over and i helped him finish off putting together his new computer. We spent most the afternoon working out a nice custom wiring job ^_^ it looks all pretty in the case now...I should have taken pics.
2) I dug real deep into this CSS thing for the web site i am hosting for Qat. I learned a lot and did more than i though i was going to be able to figure out. I still need Scott to clean up the code and massage a few places here and there - but it reminded me of how i like to do web code; even though i am grossly out of date with the modern web codes.
I am beginning to dislike where i work.
I like what I do, I am good at it; but i want to progress up the ladder so to speak.
5 years ago i was hired to grow into a position where i would be more of a Systems Engineer; the person who gathers information, assists the sales staff and installs the copier all in dealing with the network integration of the machine.
Most of these things i am doing now, although its not my job description to do so, they have added ACCT (advanced certified connectivity technician) which means i get the job of actualy connecting the equipment. However all the information gathering, technical and instructing the customer in what the machines capabilities are and what is needed as far as getting with IT of the customer and getting all information needed and working with the IT to get the machine installed is under the SE's job description...But..i have to do all this because its not getting done and I'm left out of the loop, i don't know about installs for sold equipment until only a day or two ahead and since i am still just a copier technician, I can't delegate the time necessary to get both jobs done...It's very frustrating, my team lead is not wanting to stand up and I'm going to have to go over his head...it's been 5 years, i see no growth, no upward mobility, and the management style here is not helpful in making our branch grow...and that spells dead end to me.
WTF !
now its 70 degrees outside
...
Dragon cold !
The new year has started with temperatures that match the number of days passed thus far.
Eeep
Thus ends the year.
Lots has happened, been a busy year; I have found so much.
Found myself, lost myself, then found again.
Found friends, loved ones, and Love
Expanded who I am; not so much what I am.
A lot of my world still is in the ideal world of digital interaction; thus I lack the closeness of physical contact which I still desperately want; but I am loved and I love in return.
In that sense this has been a fulfilling year.
I’m not sure which direction to take this coming year and that in-of-itself I find a bit daunting.
It’s been a good year though
(^_^)
Dragon had a good holiday.
I received a few gifts that I wanted, and some very thoughtful ones from my house mate.
I made my Mate smile when he got what I sent him...
(^_^) That made my holiday right there.
so..i ordered some gift cards for my Scott ^_^
I ordered them from Games workshop's Canadian website.
After 5 days or not seeing the charge hit the card, i emailed.
I got a response of; we did not process your order because you ordered Canadian card and those don't work in the usa, sorry for not telling you that we ignored your order, we have sent your order to the USA order people"
...
Well, it took 3 emails and a phone call to get it worked out and get them direct shipped to Scott rather than me (or they would not be there in time)..But They made it and that makes me happy (^_^)
Yay!
Now, one more present to get and i'm done with shoppings and things
So..I ran an errand...Went to the mall to buy something, came out...
..Grumble... Locked the keys in, and my spare set is not in my desk at work anymore.
So I go back in and ask the casher if they had anybody they call when people lock them selfs out of their cars. As it happens her husband showed up at the same time, bringing her the lunch she left at home. An older couple, semi-retired. He asks if i bought the truck new and where.
Yes, i did and at the dealer in Henderson.
Ok, lets go to your truck and get the VIN number.
We do and he proceeds to drive me to Henderson (25 mile round trip), to the dealer and i get a replacement key cut.
...
Mr. Jim Hillard; you have my thanks.
(^_^)
I could say what I have been up to for the upcoming holiday but some of them visit this site.
So.. Phhhttt
(^_~)
Well, it's remicade time again, I usually set here and come up with something useful or insightful. Nothing of any great importance is coming to mind. It's busy here in the Chemo ward and I am distracted by noise, thus is the nature of the place sometimes.
I have waited somewhat longer than i should have to get holiday shopping done...meep...and will have to do what is esentually all of my shopping done this weekend...yuck...it would seem that I'm not the only one thats just not into the season...i have had very few of the people on my list give me any kind of list and I am just not feeling insightful enough to get them something more personal – pretty much gift cards for all...but that's ok, that way they can get something they Want
(^_^)
A rather major update to the bio section
(Hugs his Mate)