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I sat out side and stared at the stars for a while.
09/19/09
I don't know what to say or where to begin; I am … I feel betrayed and worthless and hurt.
Maybe my feelings for him was a fair amount more than just calling him my best friend, which I did. I knew he was flaky, others told me the same. But. He held me when I cried, I was there for him when he needed the same, we explored ourselves against the other, I took him places, he went with me to mine, I took him to see my dad, I helped him with schoolwork, he gave me gifts, we talked of living together and had elaborate plans, I bought him things, he spent weeks here, we have been naked on his parents bed, watched movies, played games, music...without talking to me and when I needed him the most, struggling with issues; he removed himself from my life and I don't even know why...
It hurts
Thank you Scott for telling me to type
2 comments
This is why I should never go poking around on the net like my researching nature always drives me to do. The past is the past but there is a specific part of that blog that may not have been public. What is done can not be undone however.
The past is the definition of our present selves.
There is nothing Ill to be gained by the seeking of understanding of our fellow beings on this Earth and i have not crossed any lines here.
It is the tender and emotional moments in our lives that lend credence to the hope that mankind has a future, that there is a greater power at work amongst us. It is our power to hurt without care for another that negates that.
all emails are stripped from the remote database and proper names are never used here by me.
