Vincent The Dragon

Sunday night I put myself in a situation I was not only ill prepared for but it opened up old wounds. Childhood baggage that I thought I had lost…I got afraid, I ran, I lied, I came back, acted the fool…for some reason I don’t yet fully understand the person I ran from, totally misunderstood, lied to came back and talked to me. That person now knows some things about my personal life that very few do…We seem to have something in common I also was not fully prepared to hear. And although I think we are searching for the same thing but in different ways and we may not ever be fully compatible; I have added a friend or at least someone whom has some understanding, no I added a friend…The experience did however take its toll on me physically and mentally; nothing quite like the feeling of dry heaving in the shower after having not slept for 36 hours…It took me a bit to dissemble the odd things coursing in my head but I think I know what I did wrong, what I want in the future and what path I want to take…now I just have to find the courage to move on, learn from my mistakes and continue exploring what is to be made of this Vincent creature.

I’m still scared, still fragile, still climbing out of the pit but I will never stop trying no mater how many times the fool of me I make.

Still in a frumpy mood but getting better; still analyzing and exploring possibilities but trying to solidify what I want, still moving on…
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