Vincent The Dragon

This is in response to something posted elsewhere.

Yes, it sounds like a small thing. Bringing home a puppy. We are not allowed to have any more animals in the house we don’t own. The one mom pays for, pays for electricity, water, insurance, trash pick-up and tosses in more even to pay for the mowing on the tractor she bought. The puppy discussion has been had on several occasions but no, William comes first. You do know the two cats here have been exposed to parvo and the puppy could get sick and die. There is no food in the fridge and the tires on your car are bald but sure, a puppy comes first. It's not like i came out and asked a few weeks ago when you had days off that perhaps it would be nice to fix me a meal for us to share together when i got home since you know, i come home from work and fix you food always even when you don’t let me know you have decided to eat at your mom’s or something. Oh, wait, I did...you asked for gas money and spent your time off elsewhere. ..the finger pointing game works both ways but I ask that we digress and step back and simply move on with our lives now as individuals.

Always remember that despite growing apart, there was and still is love there. There is no reason you should not continue to better your life because despite the recent illness. You have come up in the world in job, education and socially. Please if only in spite of me, continue to be healthy, employed at your good paying job and finish your education because you do have it in you.

Be well and good bye.

Thursday Will went back into the ER..this time they properly diagnosed the issue.
He had a heart attack.

They went in and unclogged a fully clogged artery with a stint and can see that he has other blockages that we are going to treat with life changes.

He should be released today and we will go from there.

Myself, work has been stupid stressful and just not worth it. With all that been going on, I have not sleep well in weeks....but i just basically slept for 36 hours so I should be good now.

The place where i host this blog has raised their prices again.
It's just not worth it anymore to pay to have this place here.
I will look for something cheaper, hopefully I can find something I can life with otherwise for the first time in a very very long time I will no longer have my own website.

Went to the E.R. last night because Wuf felt like he was having a stroke but it turns out his blood sugar was over 500.
Diabetic
Hopefully we can figure out how to keep it under controll

Nope...no medical insurance for you. Sorry we said you could be added, but you now need to have paperwork that you can't get in this state...

back to paying $400 and month pluss 10,000 in out of pocket.

back to giving up and filing bankrupt, going down to a job that only pays 12 and hour but has health care..you know, not really enough to live on or anything.

got another $1800 to pay in cobra before i can start trying to get back on the kentucky medical shit.

sorry but working class people are not alowed to get ahead in this world

Oh..hrmm..lets see.
Money is tight, really tight...and we have to save up what we can because of a few months of Cobra payments at 438 a month untill i can get on the Wuf's new jobs insurance.

We decided to help a long time friend of Wuf's by driving 6 hours and fetching him so he can live on the couch for a bit untill he found a job. Long story short we drove him back the were he came from and parted ways.

I dont know quite what is wrong with my workstation but i am guessing the crashes are due to the capacitaters that are swollen.

The AC in Wu'fs car is not working

I hit a chunk of rock in a construction zone on my way to work and bent the shit out of the front rim and blew up the tire and broke a wheel stud as well. Nobody has a used rim for this car, i have to buy a new one from the auto dealer, plus 2 tires, pluss the stud pluss checking the alignment to make sure nothing else is broken.

Yay me

original box, original packaging, certificates, mint condition.

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Wuf is moving on from where we works to someplace else.
Making more money !
Yay! money
i need a better job to

Went up Saturday to help my dad do stuff and be up there for Father's day.

Got a ton of work done...Man am I going to be sore for a few days and also got a bit crispy in the sun.

Mowed like an acre or so, moved some heavy logs and had scrubbed the outside of the house...I still smell like bleach.

HAL4 surgery in progress

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Bag full of capacitors for the server $25
Get a call from Will, AC not working in his car, picked up refrigerant $25
Gas is $1.75, $40 in gas did not fill my tank.
Get home and check out the Ac issue, my AC recharging and testing tool doesn't fit the service port.
Get out air compressor to clean motherboard...outside electrical socket blows up.
Go to another socket, compressor comes on, never shuts off - shutoff switch is bad.
Soldering on motherboard, none of my irons will melt the solder but they do burn the motherboard...now it's really toast.

out of wine, out of money, out of patience, out of luck

HAL3, my home server...has died.

Capacitor death.
It's not likely that with as many caps as have died on this old board that I'll be able to revive it.
It's a Socket775, i don't remember what proc is in it but i don't really have any money to waste on a home file server so i'm looking for something secondhand from somebody. I can't pay money but I'll do just about anything else.

Nothing new or exciting.
Just setting here in the hospital getting my Remicade treatment.

Doing pretty good health wise.
Still struggling with money and trying to get stuff paid for, all my money goes towards life expenses with nothing left over for any perks so it kinda makes life somewhat just a meaningless struggle to pay for other peoples happiness.

There is something introspectively saddening about having a life literally in your hands and feel it slip away, wishing all you want for another outcome, you feel it take it's last breath and are powerless to stop its life from ending. I wonder what others feel or would feel in that moment. Life is an odd contradiction, we don't feel sadness when we eat that hamburger. It is different though, that life was not taken for no reason, it was to give life to yourself. Creatures live and die by their own hand and fate every day. It makes me sad to see a dead animal on the side of the road, but I really like hamburgers. I do wish the creatures who's lives were taken for for me to sustain myself were not lives lived in pain or discomfort but I do little to actively stop it. Perhaps its the detachment from the act that makes it bearable. I have taken the life of animals during a hunt, ate of their flesh; is that different? I would like to think much like some of the natives of this land thought in which that animal allowed it self to be taken for me to survive and I should thank it for it's sacrifice, it's spirit will not feel wasted and the act gives it a grander purpose. Perhaps that purposed spirit will return to feed me again, perhaps the act of it's sacrifice imbues it with the ability to expand and become something more than it was. Thank you little bunnies for giving me feeling, sadness and humility. I am sorry I did not posses the power to keep you on this earth and that I did not see your little spot in Nature in time to prevent me from taking it from you.

So...I was mowing the yard Saturday morning and I happened to stop for no real reason. Just almost under the mower deck I found an odd looking clump of what I thought was yard litter. Then i saw the fur. Crap, i just came across a carcass I thought. nope, I raked up back to find this pile of cuteness...Shit.

Time to Google... well..momma only comes twice a day. Dawn and dusk. I happened to catch her at dusk and watched from a window. The area has changed so much that she could not find the nest. I have been watching at the right times and she has not came back and there is a strategically places leaf on the nest. The temperature went from 75 to 40 and it's raining so I decided momma is not coming back.

This type of animal is very hard to re-rehabilitate without the stuff and knowledge to properly do it. Google will help nut if anyone can help me out here; I could use it.